Exhaustion

I'm tired. I think everyone is worn out by something. It may be physical exhaustion or mental exhaustion. Or it could be a bizarre cocktail of physical, emotional, mental exhaustion. Either way you slice it, you get to feel worn down. So right now, I'm tired. I'm physically tired because I just got home from a day of shopping. If you're a girl, you know how tiring that can be. I'm mentally tired. I'm emotional tired. But mainly, I'm tired of worrying. If anyone remembers from my post about Bff's, I have this friend where are relationship has been on the rocks. Well for the past couple of months, the relationship has been picked up from the rocks and thrown way down into the depths of the ocean. And I've tried. Tried to work it out. Tried to apologize. But nothing seems to work. So I'm done trying. I'm done worrying.... I'm emotionally tired because of this one boy who has caught my eye and who has had my eye for quite some time. Am I a cliche or what? This boy knows how I feel, and he very respectfully and very kindly, rejected me. And yet, yet I still worry about impressing him and worry about if I look good in front of him. But why? I do not get why I'm so obsessed. I don't get it. How can one mind worry so much about the most minuscule things? Life's greatest unanswered questions, my friends. I am once again plagued by my life's weird issues. I sound so dramatic. Even this blog is me obsessing and worrying. How can I get out of this bizarre and unusual cycle? I believe the answer is, I can't. Life is something you learn as you go, and this is one lesson I can't seem to understand.